Monday, May 4, 2009

The Glory of it All

*Be sure your sound is on. The first song on my blog player, The Glory of it All, goes with this post.

For some reason this time of night always "gets" me. I'm sitting on my couch, 300 miles away from my mom, wondering if she was exhausted today and fell asleep early, or is still making her laps around the nursing home halls. Its something I've wondered nightly for the past four months. 

I have been doing a lot of processing since Easter, hence my lack of faithful blogging. My family had the opportunity to go to church together on Easter Sunday. We all woke up before sunrise to get ourselves and my mom ready, and made it to the early service at Fellowship in LR. There was something so emotional, besides it already being Easter, about taking my mom to church. It has been a long time since we have gone as a family, and realizing it might be our last time there all together made it even more special. I'm not sure she knew where we were, I'm not even sure she knew me that weekend, but I know her spirit felt His presence.

I keep thinking back to a moment during worship when I looked over at my mom. She was looking at me, and it was the first time since Baptist Hospital that her eyes seemed empty. I've tried to explain it to a few close friends as being like someone in a vegetative state who can still move their body. 

I think I say this every month that has passed since Christmas, but I want time to stop and speed up at the same time. I want more of my mom, but I want my mom to be new and whole again, and most of all I want Him to use it for the glory of it all.

At the start
he was there, he was there
In the end,
he’ll be there, he’ll be there 

And After all our hands have wrought
He forgives 

Oh the Glory of it all is:
he came here
For the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all
for the glory of it all 

All is lost
find him there, find him there
After night
Dawn is there, Dawn is there 

After all falls apart
he repairs he repairs 

Oh the Glory of it all is:
he came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all 

oh he is here
for redemption from the fall
that we may live
for the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all
the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all 

After night
comes the light
dawn is here
dawn is here
it’s a new day
it’s a new day
everything will change
things will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same
we will never be the same 

Oh, The glory of it all is
you came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all 

Oh you are here
with redemption for us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all
for the glory of it all
oh the glory of it all 

1 comments:

The Smiths said...

Mare, I love you and I'm glad you blogged about this. :) I continue to be encouraged by your faith through this time of trial and waiting. Praying for you and your sweet mom!

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