Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Strength

I never realized how "churchy" my scripture memory is. Philippians 4:13 was one of the first bible verses I memorized as a kid. And, I can recite it still today (big whoop, I know). But, what got me tonight as I was reading is the context in which that verse was written.

Paul says to the Philippians:
10I rejoiced in the Lord greatly that now at length you have revived your concern for me. You were indeed concerned for me, but you had no opportunity. 11Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. 12I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. 13I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
(Philippians 4:10-13 ESV)

It doesn't say I can do all things because it's going to be easy if I do it His way. It doesn't say I should be content because things will work out the way I planned. And, nowhere does it say He promised me it
would be a quick and painless process.

What I do know is this...

I am called to be content no matter where He leads. I am called to rest in Him in days of need and in days of plenty. And, when I find myself lower than I've ever been or full of unimaginable joy, God says it's HIS strength that will carry me through.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Time in Little Rock

Last month I went to Little Rock for my grandmother's funeral. The service was wonderful and it brought with it a very sweet closure to her amazing life. Not a day has passed that I haven't thought of her and the mark she left on our family. I was so blessed to get to experience the depth of a mother's love from not only my own mom, but in watching how my Mimi so fervently loved her own daughter. She blessed me with something not many people get to experience, and I can't wait to someday pass on the legacy of her love to my own children.

I stayed a few extra days to spend time with my family. The weather was gorgeous so one day my mom and I went on a walk and sat outside for a while. Losing my grandmother has brought forth so many emotions that I haven't dealt with about my Mom's Disease. Her death was one of the first big life events that we'd faced without my mom being with us. It was just another reminder that though she is still here, we've already lost so much of her. I decided while we were sitting outside that day it might help me to just tell her what I have been feeling over the past few months. So, I told her - my fears, hopes, and everything in between. And, while she didn't have much response, when I asked her if she thought everything would be OK she said, "Uh huh." Sometimes all you need is for your Mom to say everything will all be alright.








Monday, March 7, 2011

Heaven on Earth

One of the perks of having a husband who travels for work is that we get to go to some really great places. We try to go somewhere new every time we take trip. We had a really hard time deciding where we wanted to go this time. After canceling the first trip we planned we decided it would be perfectly fine to go back to a place we'd already visited. Kauai is one of our hands down favorite places we have ever been. It is literally the most amazing and gorgeous place on Earth (to us) and we are so blessed to have the chance to visit again. Here's to hoping the next two months fly by!






Just Wait




Reid and I have been doing some major "waiting." Its the kind of waiting that has really challenged what and Who I put my Hope in. The one thing I can say is that I am so thankful for our church and the teaching that we get each week. Our sermon this weekend was from Romans 8 and it was just what Reid and I needed to hear. Funny when God works that way, isn't it? We left church with a totally different perspective than when we'd arrived. I'll post the link to the sermon later this week.

Then today, a friend posted something on her blog that I thought was worth remembering. Thank you, Christy, for sharing this!

Just Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; quietly patiently, lovingly God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate, and the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait."

"Wait? you say 'wait'," my indignant reply, "Lord, I need answers. I need to know why! Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked and am claiming your Word. My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me Wait?"

"I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign, or even a 'no' to which I can resign. And, Lord, You promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive. And, Lord, I've been asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate. As my Master replied once again, "You must wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut. And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed, then to kneel, and His eyes wept with mind, and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead, cause the mountains to run."

"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be. You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know ME. You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint; you'd not know the power that I give to the faint. You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there; you'd not know the joy of resting in ME, when darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove; you'd know that I give and I save (for a start), but you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart, the glow of my comfort late in the night, the faith that I give when you walk without sight, the depth that's beyond getting just what you asked, of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee, what it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee." Yes, your dreams for that loved one overnight would come true, but, oh, the loss...if I lost what I'm doing in you!

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to get to know ME. And though my answers seem terribly late, my most precious answer of all is still "WAIT."

Isaiah 30:18 "Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!"