Since Catherine was born we've had daily sonograms to check the other babies. I wasn't prepared for how hard it would be to see just three babies on the screen. I didn't know who was who because everyone's positions were always determined by Cate. We are thankful that our other three daughters have looked great on each scan.
Many of you know from reading my blog that my mom has Alzheimer's Disease. I learned last night that she has stopped swallowing and was moved to hospice. She is resting comfortably and the doctor says she will go soon.
I feel like I'm living my worst nightmare. I told Reid today that all I want to do is curl up on our bed at home cry for hours. I want to mourn my mom and Cate, but I also want to stay strong for Madelyn, Mary Grace, and Olivia. My doctors and nurses know our situation and have stressed how important it is that I remain calm. So, right now that's my priority.
The thought that brings me the most comfort is that, though my mom is about to meet Jesus and be made whole again, she's also going to meet our perfect Cate.
I'm so excited to see what God has in store for our lives and for our three precious girls. But, tonight I understand more deeply than ever that this world is not our Home.
2 Corinthians 4:16-5:9