Friday, March 30, 2012

Longing for Heaven

There aren't many changes to report. I'm still in L & D getting magnesium sulfate through a PICC line. We are trying to keep the contractions at bay and buy some time. My doctors say we are in uncharted waters and the best things we can do are wait and pray.

Since Catherine was born we've had daily sonograms to check the other babies. I wasn't prepared for how hard it would be to see just three babies on the screen. I didn't know who was who because everyone's positions were always determined by Cate. We are thankful that our other three daughters have looked great on each scan.

Many of you know from reading my blog that my mom has Alzheimer's Disease. I learned last night that she has stopped swallowing and was moved to hospice. She is resting comfortably and the doctor says she will go soon.

I feel like I'm living my worst nightmare. I told Reid today that all I want to do is curl up on our bed at home cry for hours. I want to mourn my mom and Cate, but I also want to stay strong for Madelyn, Mary Grace, and Olivia. My doctors and nurses know our situation and have stressed how important it is that I remain calm. So, right now that's my priority.

The thought that brings me the most comfort is that, though my mom is about to meet Jesus and be made whole again, she's also going to meet our perfect Cate.

I'm so excited to see what God has in store for our lives and for our three precious girls. But, tonight I understand more deeply than ever that this world is not our Home.

2 Corinthians 4:16-5:9







24 comments:

Lindsay H. said...

Mare,
I'm so sorry to hear that the last few days have been so difficult for you. I can't even imagine. Know that my prayers are with you and Reid and your girls. I pray that you'll have peace in the midst of sorrow and uncertainty.

Lindsay

Linds said...

Mare my heart hurts for you so much. I know a lot of people may say that to you, but I am SO serious when I say I ache for you. I wish I could just take your pain away or trade places with you. Life just isn't fair. I love you so so so much!

RachelRogers said...

Mary Virginia,

I am saying prayers for you and your sweet girls. I wish so much I could take all the pain from you and your family. Continue to be strong. Those little girls just need to bake a little longer.Love and hugs to you, Erin Rogers

Elizabeth French Cooper said...

Oh Mare. I am so, so sorry.

Traci said...

I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I pray that your faith in God carries you through & that you feel his presence & that brings you peace.

Sarah Frost said...

Mary Virginia--I am praying that God will wrap all of you in His loving and caring arms and that this will carry you through this valley. Your faith and your family and friends are and will be a continuous support and strength.

Sarah Frost
Kate Frost Walker's mother

Allison said...

I'm so sorry, I will continue to lift all of you up to the Lord. God bless.

Meg said...

Words fail me, but God does not. Today I lift you to the one who walks on water, is the author and finisher of life, holds and counts our tears in the palm of his nail scarred hands. Praying that you feel His comfort, His love, the peace that only He can give. Blessings to you and to all you love, here on earth and in heaven...

Christy hutchins said...

Sitting here with tears streaming down my face. I'm so very very sorry!!!!

Anonymous said...

Praying for ya'll. I am so sorry to hear of Cate going to Heaven. God knew long ago that your mom would be rocking Cate in her arms one day, what a sweet image! Stay strong! Love, Ashley Carson

Cox Quadruplets said...

thinking of you and praying for you daily!

Caroline and Nick said...

Mary Virginia, I am so sorry to hear about your mom and Cate. I am praying hard for you and your family. I hope the Lord will overwhelm you with His peace. Thank you for keeping us updated. Hugs to you!

Katie said...

This breaks my heart. Praying for you, for strength, peace, and comfort.

Anonymous said...

I am not even sure how I found your blog....but please know I am praying for you and sending peace and strength to you during this time. God's timing is perfect...stay strong.
Kristin

Anonymous said...

I haven't been able to get you and your family off of my mind since reading this this morning! May God put his arms around you and confort you and those sweet babies. You will continue to be in my prayers!
Melissa Lanier
Calhoun Ga

kate said...

Oh, friend. I am so sorry. Praying so much and thinking about you all the time.

Julee said...

My heart is literally aching for you. I have no words. I am just so sorry! I am praying!

Katie (From Passys to Parties) said...

Sweet Mare. I do not even have words to express how sorry I am for all you are having to go through. It seems like way too much to handle but I know that God's grace will be sufficient through this tough time. You are amazing and I am in constant prayer for you and your family and those sweet babies. Love you!

Amanda McMullan Hargrove said...

Oh Mare! How my heart hurts for you!!! I don't have the words to say- nothing could make things better or easier- just know you are being COVERED in prayer and are thought of every second! You are so strong and so precious- take your moments you need and save the rest for those 3 precious angels still inside you. Your mom and Cate will watch over yall- they will always be ther, like your own personal angels. Lots of love, tears, and hugs going out to you right now and in the days to come. Love you so so very much sweet friend!!!

momof3miracles said...

I am praying that everything is still the same for you and your three daughters...I am very sorry for the impending loss of your mother and the loss of your daughter. Cyber hugs from Canada and prayers and strength for you and your husband.

Texas Tales said...

Oh Mare, I am praying sincerely for you, your husband, those precious babies and your mom. What a trying time for you, I could not even imagine. You seem to exhibit an other-wordly strength that only God can give, and I am glad that you have the foresight and the clarity to remain calm and focus on the task at hand. What a strong and amazing soul He has blessed you with. All of you are in my thoughts & prayers each day. xo, your fellow quad mom

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you and your family. I am a mom of multiples and I lost one along my journey as well. We started with 5 and delivered 4. I will pray that God will grant you patience, peace, and will remind you to take in all the blessings in your life. Remember, he isn't walking with you right now, he is carrying you until you can stand again.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family during this difficult time. It is so very sweet to think that your mom will be in heaven one day to hold your precious little Cate.

Jac Tubre said...

Thinking about you and praying for your family. From one quad mom to another, hang in there momma.

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